Learn to Inhale.

"It's understandable, he was a hard man to know. I mean he didn't believe in second chances, what's done is done. I don't buy that. We can change. We do change. We don't have to take our regrets to the grave like he did. We can be free of all of that. We don't die inhaling, we exhale, we leave it all behind." ~quote from the movie "Take Me Home"

 This was one of those quotes that made an entire movie worth it. 

Think about it for a moment.

As we live...we "take in".
We "Inhale"
We absorb. 

How much have I really been taking in lately? How many times could I have been inhaling the world around me, cherishing life more, and instead just sat at home in my pjs and played on the ps3?

Look at how many goals I have yet to accomplish....some goals that are time sensitive but instead, I'm not truly inhaling. I'm like that kid that wants to "be cool" and try a cigarette and then pretends to breathe it in because he doesn't really want to...he doesn't know what it'll taste like, smell like feel like...he's scared. I'm doing that. One of my big goals is about diet and weight loss because I have a personal goal of losing a certain amount of weight before I truly try to work on having children. The amount of excuses I make is ridiculous and the real reason isn't that I can't diet- because I can and I have before, successfully- it's the fear of the reason WHY. I mean, I guess I'm worried about what happens with my PCOS after I lose the weight, what if I can't get pregnant or what if it doesn't work out? For crying out loud, I'm not even done with my divorce and yet the conversation of having a child with my bf is a real one? I mean, sometimes I think I literally just scare myself. 

 I need to stop making excuses. I need to learn to breathe. I need to learn to inhale...to truly live. I need to live in a way where I won't have regrets...

 but yet, this ....these are just words.

WORDS.

Words get me no where.