Inhale....and ....Exhale

"The most important thing you will do in your life is take your next breath."~John Goodman

I Pinch

When feeling crabby, don't be crabby alone.


I now have two pet hermit crabs.

BSB Fever

Finally...after being a fan for 17 of their 20 years, I saw the Backstreet Boys perform!

I'll never forget the "In A World Like This" tour.

Brian Littrell's son, Baylee, did 2 opening songs. He's adorable.

DJ Pauly D tried to get the crowd fist pumpin'

Jesse McCartney is mega hot and does dubstep.

My Backstreet Boys were perfect <3

Watermelon Ring Pop

I am engaged to Kenny!
Kenny has been thinking about getting a ring pop built around an engagement ring...but that fell through...so then he was going to propose at the BSB concert in August but let's be real, he knew I still had a few seconds to run off with Nick Carter .... soooo he had a ring pop and proposed. It's perfect. It was sweet and personal and totally us (besides, who can say "no" to a watermelon ring pop????)

Golden Key

Today...I got the keys to our new townhouse! This time though, I'm calling dibs on the good key! Kenny isn't getting the best copy this time. Muahahahahaha!

Thundersnow

 "Oh the weather outside is frightful,
and work- not so delightful...
but at least Kenny is snowed in here too...
now stop the ice, stop the ice, stop the ice....

Oh the snow is being a b*tch -how?...
the truck is in the ditch now...
but at least you're stuck at work with me...
so stop whine, oh stop whine, whiiiiiinnnnniiiiing" 


If I'm stuck at work....at least I had to call a double staff in. Of course I'm short staffed so I called in Kenny.

He isn't as impressed with my song though :(

Learn to Inhale.

"It's understandable, he was a hard man to know. I mean he didn't believe in second chances, what's done is done. I don't buy that. We can change. We do change. We don't have to take our regrets to the grave like he did. We can be free of all of that. We don't die inhaling, we exhale, we leave it all behind." ~quote from the movie "Take Me Home"

 This was one of those quotes that made an entire movie worth it. 

Think about it for a moment.

As we live...we "take in".
We "Inhale"
We absorb. 

How much have I really been taking in lately? How many times could I have been inhaling the world around me, cherishing life more, and instead just sat at home in my pjs and played on the ps3?

Look at how many goals I have yet to accomplish....some goals that are time sensitive but instead, I'm not truly inhaling. I'm like that kid that wants to "be cool" and try a cigarette and then pretends to breathe it in because he doesn't really want to...he doesn't know what it'll taste like, smell like feel like...he's scared. I'm doing that. One of my big goals is about diet and weight loss because I have a personal goal of losing a certain amount of weight before I truly try to work on having children. The amount of excuses I make is ridiculous and the real reason isn't that I can't diet- because I can and I have before, successfully- it's the fear of the reason WHY. I mean, I guess I'm worried about what happens with my PCOS after I lose the weight, what if I can't get pregnant or what if it doesn't work out? For crying out loud, I'm not even done with my divorce and yet the conversation of having a child with my bf is a real one? I mean, sometimes I think I literally just scare myself. 

 I need to stop making excuses. I need to learn to breathe. I need to learn to inhale...to truly live. I need to live in a way where I won't have regrets...

 but yet, this ....these are just words.

WORDS.

Words get me no where.